The Lord has been challenging me so much these past 9 weeks here. It has been HARD. For me, dfo was a "safe place" in my relationship with the Lord, and just in my life in general. I found such good community here last summer when I was at such a hard place in my life and in my relationship with the Lord.
This summer, life has been much different. I've searched for community and just seem to keep missing it. I spend a lot of time alone, and if you know me, I HATE being alone. I've really struggled with that my whole life and I think God decided it was time to work on my heart in that.
I'm still struggling a lot with my decision to come to DFO this summer. God took away the "safe place" feeling and it just isn't the same. I'm not understanding why I'm here or what I'm supposed to be learning from the things that are going on in my life right now, but all I can do is lean on Jesus.
I don't like being dependent on anyone but myself, but God is making me desperately dependent upon Him.
