feelings.

I've got em.

So many different feelings running through my head right now.
First of all, I found out today that my mom died. To me, this isn't as big of a deal as it may seem to others. My mom gave me away when I was a baby. She never cared about me. I guess what I'm feeling most of all is shock. And anger. I will never get the chance to say the things I've been needed to say to her all my life. I honestly don't know how that will affect me in the future.

Then, today the facebook group for DFO 2013 was started, and I have such mixed emotion. I'm SO excited to be back at DFO, but there are very few returnees, and I'm scared of what the summer will look like for me. I am in a completely different place in life then I was last year. I just pray God will use my summer at DFO in great ways.

Last, but never the least, I am STRESSED to the max. I am working a TON, and trying to find time for work, school, younglife, working out, and eating healthy. Each of those things take a large amount of time, and it's hard to find time to devote to each without losing time in my day. I pray that God will give me the time to do the things I need to get done.